Growling Sound

Today I am going to share a ghostly experience which I had few years ago. Somewhere in 2006.

I use to stay in Mumbai since childhood however my native place is Kolkata. My grandmother use to live alone in Kolkata's home. I use to visit my native place once in a year during my summer vacation. After completing my class 10th, my family (which includes-me,my younger brother,mom and dad) shifted to Kolkata as my grandma was not well and nobody was there to look after her. When I use to visit there during my summer vacation, my cousins who lives nearby told me lots of ghost stories which happened in that locality.

Anyways coming back to my story, my mom, dad and my younger brother use to sleep in one room and I use to sleep with my grandma in another room. After few months, she moved to uncle's place for a month. So then I used to sleep alone in my room. Most of the time after dinner, I played games on my PC or watched movies and go to sleep around 2-3 o'clock. One night while I was watching a movie, suddenly electricity gone. So I had to go to bed early. It was around 1 o'clock. It was raining heavily outside. It was a bit cold so I took a thin blanket and covered myself completely. My mom always shout at me and tell me to keep the face uncovered as it might be suffocating. But I never listened to her. I closed my eyes to sleep but I can hear the windows (sliding glass windows) and doors were shaking because of heavy storm outside.However I was not afraid of it, as I knew it was just because of heavy breeze. Suddenly I heard a growling sound like HMMMMM, it was a male voice. First time I thought it may be the sound of wind so I ignored it but I heard the noise again. This time it was very clear. Like somebody was growling in anger. Then the sound continued...Suddenly I felt the room getting warm and somebody is standing near my bed. I thought to get up and go to the next room where my parents were sleeping but something was holding me and I was not able to move. I didn't had the courage to uncover my face and see. I always keep my mobile under my pillow, so I managed to take it out and called my dad. Luckily he kept his mobile on. I told him to come to my room. As soon as he knocked the door of my room, the voice stopped and I felt free to move but still I didn't uncover my face for next few minutes. Then I woke up and ran to open the door. I told my dad about the incident, so he told me to go and sleep in his place and he slept in my room. He kept the door opened. I slept beside my mom and then after few minutes electricity came. I know it might be scary when you are sleeping alone and then lights are gone, ambiance become quiet but I was not scared at all until I heard that noise.

I Cant Make You Love Me If You Don't...

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed

Turn down these voices inside my head

Lay down with me, tell me no lies

Just hold me close, don't patronize

Don't patronize me

'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

Here in the dark in these final hours

I will lay down my heart, and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no you won't

And I can't make you love me

If you don't

I'll close my eyes and then I won't see

The love you do not feel, when you're holding me

Morning will come, and I'll do what's right

Just give me till then, to give up this fight

And I will give up this fight

And I can't make you love me if you don't

You can't make your heart feel something it won't

And here in the dark in these final hours

I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power

But you won't, no, you won't

And I can't make you love me

If you don't

Ain't no use in you trying

It's no good for me baby without love

All my tears, all these years, everything I believed in

Baby

Oh yeah

This song is dedicated for those people who really don't realize what they truly had.


What will you really do to make the other person fall in love with you? To make that person feel how much you think about them, how much you love them, how much you care about them? After putting all your efforts, do you really think that they will feel the same  for you.


I hope you have heard that famous line from Om Shanti Om
-"Agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaho to puri kayanat usey tumse milaane ki koshish me lag jaati hai."
Which means that "If you love someone whole-heartedly then the universe will try to bring you both together."


Please friends don't take it otherwise but for me it's bullshit. I truly respect your feelings, It's only what I feel. I use to believe in these kind of thoughts and there was one more which I believed for last 6 years-"We should love the person who loves you and not the one whom you have loved."

We feel ourselves very lucky when we get the person who loves you more than his life, infact you are now their life however on the other hand, what happens when you start loving them and suddenly realize that you are not their life? When that person become your world and for them you just become a PART of their world, like a small island!

Why it always happens with me?When I loved someone, he loved me too but suddenly left me in the dark room without any reason. I was scared, depressed and alone. No one was there to help me, to take me out of that room. Then I became habituated to live alone in that dark place. I started feeling that its the best place to live. Hence I locked myself and throwed the key where I couldn't find it.

Now no one was able to see my tears, feel my pain or make fun of my loss. No one will again hurt me. I use to talk to my friends from the window if they come to meet me but never opened the door. Many people knock the door but I was afraid of the outside light to come in and what will happen if they will see me. Gradually the water in my eyes got dried and I lived there for a year without crying. 

One day, someone broke the door and the light came in like a ray of hope. I didn't allow him to come in and told him to stay outside and go away. He never tried to come inside without my permission.

Waited for me outside the door for a year. Then I felt that no one did that for me in past 2 years. He spent all the time with me. In this one year, he never let me cry, always gave me happiness. When I told him, "you  should go now, your world is waiting for you." He replied, "you are my everything, you are my world. I want you to come outside from this dark place." I felt that love and affection again but this time, I felt it much stronger. Finally I stepped out after 2 years. Never felt the world so beautiful. It was like a dream for me which was coming true. But....how dream can be true?

I was in the dream for one year after coming out from the dark. Slowly my world started shaking and then both my dream and my world was broken. It was difficult for me to bear this light. I felt that he was leaving my hand. I told him to stay but he said that my world is calling me. 
I said," you told me that I am your world."
He replied,"no baby you are a part of my world."
I begged him, " please don't leave me,I don't know the way. I will be lost in this light."
He said, "I am not leaving you, just stay behind and walk with me."
So he started moving to his so called world and I followed him. On the way, he introduced his world to me-his parents, friends, colleagues, neighbors and some of his acquaintances. I started seeing the world through his eyes. I thought he will turned around and tell me to walk with him or see whether I am there behind him or not but he never did. He didn't notice me till the time when I started to create another world. I met with many unknown people and they became my friends. Atleast I was happy for the time being that someone is there with me. Then he started getting angry on me.
He said, " don't talk to them, they are not good. You will only see the things which I will show you."
I said, " why will I do that? You never bothered about me. Have you turned back to hold me when I fell down? I just want to walk with you, not behind you."
He realized my pain, my absence and said sorry. Then he held my hands and we walked together...
So the moral of the story is, "if you started loving a person who also loved you alot initially but now ignoring you or left you, don't put any efforts to bring them back.Don't show them that he/she was your weakness. If they truly love you, they will realize what they have lost and will come back to you. And if they don't come back....
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Then try to forget about them and move on...It's just a chapter in the past, but don't close the book, just turn the page.
I know it's easy to say and hard to do but the truth is 
"THEY ARE A LOSER, THEY DON'T DESERVE YOU"

The Art Of Kissing

Kiss-An act of caressing with the lips.
If you want to express your love, passion, affection, greeting and respect then a kiss is enough. No need to say anything. It's worth a thousand words. It has become a common expression of affection among many cultures worldwide.
For lovers, kiss is an important expression of love and erotic emotions. The perfect kiss at the perfect timing could definetly spice your relationship, keeping the flame of love ever burning. It's like salt water...once you have a drink...your thirst increases and you want more. It has been proven that kissing is good for our heath. A passionate kiss generally burns up to 2–3 calories per minute.

Most of the girl's favorite kind of kiss would be if her lover push her against the wall, hard, pull her as close as he can, to her body and kiss her rough and with no intention of stopping...

Hmmm...girls, are you already imagining it and is it giving goosebumps? And boys if you are reading this are you planning to surprise your girlfriend with this kind of kiss? I am sure many of them have already tried this and remembering those special moments. Well my first kiss was kind of same. Actually we were watching a movie and there was a scene where initially the boy and the girl was just friends. But the girl has a soft corner for him. When she saw him with another girl who was wearing a short mini skirt and having coffee with him. She left that place angrily and that boy ran after her and etc etc. Well I will not bore you  by telling the whole story of that movie. Somewhat the story is same. He use to love me but never told me by that time. I also do had a soft corner for him but obviously I am girl, how will say first that I love him. Let's cut in short, I was talking about the movie scene and said "what kind of girl she is? She is saying that she don't love that boy but when he kissed her forcefully, she didn't stop him. If I would be in her place then I would have slapped that boy tightly." Hmmm...then he said,"well you also don't love me so if I kiss you will you slap me as well." I said, "yes,I will. Infact I will not allow to come close to me." We were joking on the situation and then I challenged him that he won't be able to do the same. So he started chasing me and I ran throughout the room and then finally he caught me and hold me tightly so that I don't ran away and pushed me agains't the wall and ..............the same thing happen as I mentioned at the top. Well we ended up only with the kiss that day.lol. After all, that was my first kiss and it's memorable for me.

Previously I was aware of a kiss which was just a simple peck. However I realized that there are so many ways of kissing. Want to discover some new ways to kiss your beloved one? Get some fun ideas from this guide to the different types of kisses. You're guaranteed to learn a new kissing style!

1. The French Kiss

The most popular type of kiss. An open mouth kiss having your tongue in and out of your partner’s mouth, touching their lips and then slowly reach out for their tongue as they do the same. Also while doing this, try to look your partner into the eyes. Make sure you brushed your teeth and have a good smell.

2. The Angel Kiss

A kiss with a touch of gentleness, kissing gently on your partner’s lips or eyelids, providing a very sweet, comforting, assuring feeling. I would personally prefer this kiss from my would be hubby in the morning before the sun comes up.

3. Sweety Kiss

A funny way of sharing your fruits, ideal during your usual evening fruits time on the couch in front of the TV. With your partner close beside you, take a small piece of fruit, place it between your lips and make your way to the lips of your partner, offering him or her a share of it. You nibble one half of it while he or she nibble the other half, allowing the sweetness of the fruit to run into your mouths, finally finishing it with a wonderful romantic kiss.

4. The Single-Lip Kiss

To give someone a single-lip kiss, take one of their lips between yours and gently suck or tug on it. It's an awfully romantic kiss, and if you do it right, you'll send tingles up and down your sweetie's spine.

5. The Whispering Kiss

A great kiss to perform while you're taking a break from lip kisses. Move your lips slowly over to the side of your partner's neck, gently kissing your way up to the ear, blowing that hot passionate breath of yours into the ear, softly nibbling on it and wisper the special three words " I Love You."

6. The Spiderman Kiss

How can we forget that! Based on the kiss in the 2002 movie Spider-Man, the Spiderman kiss involves kissing someone whose face is upside-down from yours, so your top lip kisses their bottom lip and vice versa.

7. The Lip-Lock Kiss

This kiss is a fun, more of a game than a kiss. To do it, open your mouth, inhale deeply and lock lips with your partner (like you're performing CPR). Slowly exhale into their mouth while they're inhaling, "passing" the breath to them. Without moving, slowly inhale while your partner exhales. Keep passing the breath back and forth until one of you runs out of breath or you both erupt in giggles.

8. The Vampire Kiss

Some people find it painful rather than sexy. It's a deep kiss on someone's neck that can involve sucking or light biting on the skin. Since it might leave a red mark on their neck and can be embarrassing as well to walk around with that mark. So always ask permission before you give someone a vampire kiss.

9. The Blown Kiss

It is cute way to express your love by making that MWAAH sound from a reasonable distance-say fifty paces. Specially many people would not like to kiss or to be kiss in a public place. They will find the Blown kiss to be the most satisfactory.

There are few more types of kisses which is not only meant for lovers but also for a friend or for your parents or for the one whom you respect and admire.

1. The Hand Kiss

I would rather call this kiss as a gesture which indicates courtesy, politeness, respect, admiration or even devotion by a man towards a woman, by a vassal towards his master or a child towards his parent or grand-parent. The hand kiss was considered a respectful way for gentleman to greet a lady.

2. The Forehead Kiss

It is a sweet, innocent way of saying he cares about you and you matter to him. People may kiss children on the forehead to comfort them. A simple kiss on forehead by your parents or from your beloved can erase all your worries.

3. The Air Kiss

Specially you will see this performing by the glamor models and the celebrities. They also called this as 'Fake kiss.' This involves kissing in the air near the cheek with the cheek touching or not.

4. The Cheek Kiss

The cheek kiss is exactly what it sounds like - a closed-mouth kiss against someone's cheek. Cheek kisses can be used as friendly greetings, flirty thank-you's or cute, unexpected ways to say good-bye to your boyfriend or girlfriend or to show the love and affection for our parents.

A person may kiss another on their lips, cheek, head, hand and each of these gestures may carry a different social significance, depending on their culture, relationship and context. As it is way to express your love and affection, it's not only for human beings but also for the animals and birds.

The Beginning

Hi everyone,


Before you start reading this, I would like to inform you that if you are searching for some good blogs which will give you an idea or knowledge about something then please don't read it further. This might make you happy in some places but most of the time it will be depressing because it is not only a blog, it's my life. The journey of an average girl with an average looks and average lifestyle. 


This is a girl who have no such special feature which can draw an individual's attention, always been counted in a crowd. I believe that now you all are thinking then what will I write further, what will make you read my blog further. Hahaha....I have started writing it with zero confidence but then one of my friend told me, "may be how simple,how common you think you are but no one's story is common. It's your life which you are living for last 23 years and you will continue it further."


Most of us, when we were children, we were like free bird. We can say whatever comes in our mind, we can dance and sing wherever we want.  I also did. When not in a mood to study, I use to scribble on the last pages of the books or draw something. And Mom use to think that I am studying. I wish I could go back, back where every pain could be heal with a lollipop and a hug. I am sure that you have done more crazier things than me. 


I will tell you about such few crazy things which I have done. Many people love prawns and I do as well. Specially fried prawns......yummy. One day, my mom kept fried prawns in the kitchen which she was going to use, to prepare a dish for lunch, and she went outside. I came home after playing and got smell of those yummy and crispy prawns and started sniffing the kitchen. I saw them.....and there were soooo many...so mouth-watering. Can't hold myself and ate all of them. When she came home and found all fried prawns are gone. She know very well that its all in my small tummy. She came to me in anger but I smiled and hugged her tightly and everything got normal.


This is still ok but what happen if someone sprays the mosquito and cockroach killer on all the food? I did....I don't remember why but my dad told me and then I got a nice scolding from him. I was a very naughty and stubborn kid. If I asked for something like chocolate or any toy, then I just want it. Wherever I saw the things which I liked, I stopped walking and asked for the same to my daddy. And if he denied and walked away..............then I not only stopped walking, I sat there on the road until and unless he came back and bought it for me. I know many of you did that as well. My dad, although he used to get angry on me, he also loves me the most. The most crazy thing which I did was, once we went to a park and I pushed him over a lady and she got irate and told her husband. But my dad got saved because her husband saw me while I pushed my dad over her. So he explained her wife that it was my fault.


Lots of pranks which we use to play with friends, aunts and uncles like keeping a fake lizard among the vegetables, water ring, etc. It was fun but one thing which I have always missed was a brother or a sister. A brother or a sister are like friends who stays at your house, with whom you can always watch TV together, play games together, chat with them at night in a low voice under a blanket when our parents are sleeping. All of my friends had either one sister or a brother and when we play games, they always use to take their side, specially brothers. Finally that day came when my sister came into my world when I was 5 years old. I was very happy, thought my dream came true. She was so cute and most of the time when my mom tells me to study, I sat beside her and looked at her every movement. The way she moved her tiny hands and legs, the way she used to yawn because I was seeing such a small baby for the first time. But I think God don't want to see me happy. God took my sister away from me just after a month. She died due to anemia. First time I saw my dad crying. For most of you, in childhood, your worst pain could be a scrapped knee and biggest worry could be if someone stolen your crayons. And I realized the pain of losing someone who will never come back. Not once but twice. After few years, God played again with my feeling. At the age of 8, I got a baby brother, which I have expected more than having a sister. But this happiness last for a day only. I have seen him from a distance but my mom said that he looks like my father. The next day when we were coming to hospital after doing some shopping for my brother, we got this bad news.  Mom was totally broken after losing two children. I cannot compare my pain with her. She gave birth after carrying them 9 months in her womb. I almost lost all my faith from God. Finally after 11 years, God gave my brother back and he is still with us. Like my father loves me the most but my mom's love was only for his son. She always take his side even if he is right or wrong, which makes me angry. But when I look at my brother, I forget about everything. Thought my brother will support me and help me in every problem however things has reversed. Ha ha ha. 11 years of difference........hugh difference! He loves me more than I love him. Like I said, mom always do partiality. Whenever she cooked something good, she quietly call him and give him to taste the dish first. But he always shared it with me.

Come with me

Some say the world will end in fire,

Some say in ice.

From what I’ve tasted of desire

I hold with those who favor fire.

But if it had to perish twice,

I think I know enough of hate

To say that for destruction ice

Is also great

And would suffice.